December 01, 2013

December and Something to Ponder

Assalamu'alaikum :)

Found something to ponder;

  1. If you like someone, wait.
  2. Give lots of compliments, even if you’re shy. Everyone else is too.
  3. Change. Get a haircut, try new perfume, get new sheets. Become better than you were before.
  4. Eat healthier. Learn to cook something fancy.
  5. Get up earlier and watch the sun come up.
  6. Wear soft clothes, take a bath, drink something warm.
  7. Meet someone new, even just a friend.
  8. Become closer with your friends and your family. Call your mother. Cry with your best friend. Tell everyone how much you appreciate them.
  9. Keep your room clean. Buy some candles. Let the natural light in.
  10. Make a list of reasons why you’ll be better off without them. Believe they are true, because they are. 
  11. Listen to new music
  12. Write everything you’re thinking and feeling. Write letters. Write happy letters, sad letters, and angry letters, even if you’re never going to send them.
  13. It’s okay to be sad, but not forever. Sadness is not as beautiful as music makes it seem. Lack of sleep makes your eyes droopy, not deep. Wake up every morning and tell yourself you’re going to have a good day.
  14. Go to the library. Don’t forget to look in the music section. 
  15. Remove them from your life. Get rid of the things they gave you if they make you sad. They’re not worth it. You will never be happy if you continue to hold on to the things that make you sad.
  16. Make new memories.
  17. Try to find something to appreciate in everything you do or experience.
  18. Being alone is okay, you don’t have to surround yourself with people. 
  19. Become your own best friend. Buy yourself coffee and drink it alone in a cafe. Take your time. 
  20. Learn to love every bit of yourself.

H, these cats are cuter, aite? :)

Before I end, this is beautiful too. It is from 'Ten Things I learned before I Turned Twenty' by Amanda Helm. If it is too long, bookmark it first but make sure you'll read it because it's worth your time ;)

1. When your friends ask you to hangout, and you don't feel like it, don't go. Don't ever do things halfway or do something that makes you uncomfortable. With everything, give all of yourself, even the pieces you never knew existed.

2. It is okay not to know. Everyone always despises the phrase, "I don't know" but no one tells you it is okay not to know. The becoming is more important than the being, anyways.

3. If someone ever makes you feel less, in any way, you have every right to walk away. You have every right to cut out toxic people in your life. To close the door on people who make you feel bad about who you are or what you stand for. Friends don't tear down, they build up. (This is splendid awh).

4. Loss is always going to happen. Just like paint will always chip and rain will always fall, loss will always be part of life. No matter how much I don't like it, or avoid it, it is going to walk my way at several times in my life. Learn to embrace it and learn to get closure.

5. Give yourself a chance. Stop saying, "I don't think I can" or "But what if I am not able to?" and give yourself a chance. This may be cliche but try to believe in yourself. When you get older, your knees won't work the same and you won't have the best memory, and you are going to wish you'd given yourself a chance years sooner.

6. Fall in love. Don't be guarded before you fall in love. You could fall in love three times and still not find the right one, but none of it is going to make "the one" matter less. Don't fall into the idea that your first love has to be your best love.

7. Firsts are going to be messy. First loves, first failed tests, first college class, first time you drive a car, first time you ride a plane - first time were made to be imperfect. Just because it's messy and all over the place, doesn't mean it can't be good or worthwhile.

8. You want another scoop of ice-cream? Go get it. Get three more scoops of ice-cream if that is what you want. "Fat" is not the opposite of beautiful and it is not the opposite of happy. Don't let anyone tell you that your body type isn't beautiful. Beauty is a social construct, create your own, become your own.

9. Let yourself be alone. Loneliness is not a bad thing. It is healthy and normal. Everyone needs to spend a good portion of their life alone. We learn who we are when we are alone; life is less crowded and more clear when we are alone.

10. If you aren't happy where you are, change it. Quit your job, move, become a vegetarian, get a new hobby, pick up an old hobby, whatever you do - make sure it benefits you. Life is too short to not be alive, to not be passionate, and overflowing :)

Happy pondering, people. xo

November 29, 2013

Hey! :)


It's been a long time. Phew.

Hi guys! I have finished my foundation program month ago and if everything went well, the result etc, I'll advance my study on degree program inshaaAllah ameen ameen ya Allah.

I am now having school holiday (well, I am a pre-service teacher so I don't really call it as cuti sem, it is more to cuti sekolah style). I miss my classmates, lecturers, seniors especially TESLians quite a lot awh. I miss writing too but seriously I am really busy right now.

I went to Cameron Highlands with my family a week ago and it's really fun and I cherish the moment we had together since it's been a long time I don't spend great quality time with my family.

I'll update more soon. xo

October 25, 2013

Do Things That Make You Happy

Haiii *senyum*

"Omigosh omigosh cantiknyaaa dia pakai shawl. I should wear shawl too sebab rasa tak updated dengan fashion nowadays (gitew). Nak jadi hijabster jugek"

Lalu pergi membeli shawl(s) dan pashmina(s). Pulang ke rumah, melihat pula tutorial pakai shawl dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Dan bila dah pakai shawl, walaupun rasa panas rimas serabut, rasa bangga sebab orang cakap "cantiknya youuu, hot stuff lah sekarang. hijabster gitu".

The question is; do you happy? truly happy for making others impressed with you?

"Pergh, cool nya dia menyanyi. Famous pulak tu. Hmm nak try menyanyi jugak lah. Nak jugak jadi famous supaya dapat membeli famous amos. Asyik terperap je dalam bilik, macam mana orang nak kenal dan perasan kewujudan aku kat maktab/uni ni "

Lalu proses mempopularkan diri sendiri pun bermula dengan menyertai pertandingan nyanyian walaupun sudah terang lagi bersuluh suara tak berapa nak sedap, takpe, asalkan aku naik stage and then orang kenal aku then boleh upload kat Facebook. Gitew.

The question is: do you happy? :)

I asked several people about this topic and these are some respondents of my questions :-

"Do things that make you happy means just do the things that you like. I am happy with people who understand me and I don't have to pretend in front of them, like my family" -Dayang.

"Things that make me happy are spending my time shopping, watching kdramas and spend time with those that I love and cherish. I am happy just the way I am" -Cassandra

"I am happy when I accomplish my goal" -Sue Zhen

"I define 'do things that make you happy' as you do something based on your preferences and interest rather than 'I want to be accepted' feeling. Things that make me happy is when I devote myself to God and being His instrument in helping others" -Farhana

"Do things that make me able to be who I am without being someone else. Things that allow me to spread out my idea and my feelings." - Syafiqah

"I believe it means to always prefer doing things that you are passionate with, because doing something that we love is somewhat happiness. I am happy when sharing some beautiful moments with my family, my friends and my loved ones" -Syafiq Haiqal

The main point here is, do something to impress yourself, not others. Memang kita akan rasa orang lain sangat cool bila dia pandai berfesyen, bila dia update status facebook dapat banyak like, bila dia main gitar sangat hebat or bila dia berkata-kata dia sangat adorable. But I believe, by being yourself and do your passion, you can be happy.

I always remind myself to be satisfied with what I have eventhough kadang-kadang selalu fikir macamni;

"Coolnya Khadijah main tenis. Nak jugaklah turun petang-petang main tenis. Kalau tak, rasa left out. Classmates ramai yang main tenis"

"Nana and Hana selalu baca novel English. Nak jugaklah baca novel English. Kalau baca novel BM rasa tak cool ohhh".

"Dia ada S3 mini hmm nak bawak keluar duit blog ah nak beli S3 mini"

And I have to admit that I sometimes try to do what others are capable of. Tapi lama-lama this kind of habit sangat membosankan sebab hakikatnya I can't feel the true happiness.

Takpelah kalau awak seorang je yang minat puisi dalam kelompok awak.
Takpelah kalau  awak seorang je yang pandai main gitar dalam kelas awak.
Takpelah kalau awak seorang je yang minat P. Ramlee daripada geng-geng awak.
Bukannya forever alone pun.

By doing things that you like, love and have a passion with, you'll find the happiness and people who have the mutual interests with you. Believe me :)

I love sajak and puisi.
I love pink.
I love to spend my time alone with books (rather than people).
I love to listen to Coldplay.

So, what are yours? ;)

October 20, 2013

I Am Still Living With My Past (you)

The following character is either girl or boy, woman or man, female or male.
As long as it is story, just read :)

Now the sky could be blue, I don't mind.
Without you, it is a waste of time.

I am still living with my past (you).

I drown myself into photography. 
We both are bookworms, living in our book-maniac world. Read sirah novels by Abdul Latip Talib.
Listening Coldplay's songs, especially 'Strawberry Swing'. You were a part of orchestra team, while I am in Gamelan.
Before, I never thought of wearing high heels because you once said, "It's not you that shortie, it others are just too tall" :)
To add, I never wore shawl since I met you because you personally think that "woman who wears tudung bawal is more beautiful than others" and you already knew that 'Rabiatul' and 'make-up thingy' can't be put in one sentence because it's weird.
Do you still remember 'Plants vs Zombie' game? And how interested we were with the characters until you gave me the'Sunflower' doll and you own the 'Corn'.
Your Tipah (cat), yeah, I still remember her. And because you always told me about Tipah, I slowly began to love cats :)
We enjoyed sending letters to each other because it is not mainstream and it shows more sincerity I guess.
On the way going back to Terengganu, I can't avoid to think of you whenever i past Kerteh area, because your brother works there.
I thought I'll be okay in Kuala Terengganu until I saw a clinic named 'Klinik Najmie'. Oh, the name is almost similar like yours.
Suprisingly, I still wear the pink jubah you bought me from Indonesia last year and it is the last gift you gave me before we both decided not to contact anymore.

I don't listen to Coldplay's anymore because I find Austin Mahone is more to my style.
Now I sometimes wear high-heels because it is not others are too tall, it is just me that too short.
I love shawls, especially pashmina because I am lazy, I don't have that much time to iron my bawal.
I apply compact powder, lip gloss, lotion and sometimes eye-liner because now 'Adawiyah' and 'make-up thingy' are beautiful in one sentence.


I am still in love with photography.
I am still a bookworm, a Hlovate fan and forever Abdul Latip Talib's loyal reader.
I plays Sarun in Gamelan and I enjoys watching orchestra performance via Youtube.
I put the 'Sunflower' in a box together with your letters :)
And the jubah, I never put it in my wardrobe. It is always in a place that I can see clearly and obviously. Just because...

I never realized that all this while, I have decided to still live with my past (you) because my past (you) was the happiest moments i ever had. So far yet so close. so close yet so far.

It's such a perfect day... :)

p/s Final exam. Maafkan salah silap. Tahun depan dah naik degree inshaa Allah ^^

July 04, 2013

Promises, Birthday and Redza Minhat


On the first day of semester three, I already made some promises to myself inspired from tumblr. It's to lift up my spirit as I'll be facing le final exam of foundation program (finally!!!) in TESL this semester.

1. Drink a lot of water and green tea - no progression. I'm still in love with my ice milo. Oreo Vanilla cool blog is the main choice during outing. Still, my love to plain water is just plain as it is.

2. Eat a big breakfast, average lunch and a tiny dinner - I am not use to a big breakfast. Fried mee with sausage is enough, and milo ice haha. I know it's not a good breakfast. Besides, I can't afford to just eat biscuit for breakfast, give me no energy at all.

3. Eat fruit & vegetables + natural food - can I just cancel this so-called azam baru? sigh. Adawiyah and vegetables cannot be put in a sentence. The epic nightmare.

4. Go for a walk / swim / bike / ride - Proud of having friends like Raihan, Tan and Hana because they are good in sports so little by little they influence me to exercise or go for a riadah.

5. Read a book - Surely as book is my staple diet but currently reading To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee because it is a must for English Studies III.

6. Go to bed earlier - only if I've completed my task. I less my hibernate time during weekend so yeah.

7. Stop thinking negative thoughts about yourself or others - I am trying bebeh.

8. Don't dwell on the past - never interested to flashback who I was. hey, moving on is the best decision.

9. Enjoy little things in life - indeed :)

10. Do not judge or compare yourself to others - to be frank, I am never interested in comparing myself to others because I've said this many times; everyone has their own potential and unique in their own way so be yourself is the best thing to do because others personalities are taken. xo

11. Begin yoga or meditation - moderate this to read al-mulk every night before go to bed, it is more soothing.

12. Do not put things off - procrastination is bad dood, avoid it! :(

13. Avoid processed food - this is among the hardest things to do, I'm trying self, I'm trying T.T

14. Stretch daily to increase flexibility - this sounds weird and I done this only once since the promise are made xD

15. Listen to peaceful music - peaceful music is not like my genre though because I like music from G-Dragon, Bigbang, 2ne1, Lee Hi and Tablo but yeah my latest favourite song is From The Bottom by Tablo ft Bumkey.

16. Live in a tidy place - to avoid stress actually. Mama always called or texted me to clean up my room regularly. Aye aye mama!

17. wear clothes that make you happy - i just wear anything, makcik style also can as long as it is comfortable (and covering the aurah)

18. Throw away things you don't need - I need everything in my room so far but if there's anything I don't need anymore or I don't  want to use it, I'll ask others first just in case they want the stuff.

19. Remember that all the effort you are making now will pay off in the end - says who study, assignments, homework yadda yadda are SO MUCH FUN? but yeah, you need to study aite?

20. Go outside more - I am. And I want to travel more :)

Le Birthday

choc indulgence rawr

birthday sweetie xo

after eating yumm yumm

heyya love :)

My English Studies lecturer celebrated her birthday today. Happy birthday Miss Izzati, may God bless you. She'll getting married soon yeay :)

Redza Minhat

suami orang.

I don't know but I am really into Redza Minhat lately. Is it because of Kil or what? Sigh. I like guy with good words. Ladies and gentlemen, this is Redza Minhat's blog. Read, because i think Redza is a man with good look and good words. I used his name in my Language Description (Reporting Statements) on wh- questions today and I can understand more woohoo

when is redza minhat's wedding day?
Transformation : Ali asked Aini when Redza Minhat's wedding day was.
Rule (1) : Subject comes before the verb.
Evidence (1) : "Is Redza Minhat's wedding day" is changed to " Redza Minhat's wedding day was".
Rule (2) : Change in tense.
Evidence (2) : "Is" is changed to "was".

And there's another examples but my questions' theme is Redza Minhat :P

Adawiyah :)

June 06, 2013

Highschool Memories

 let's leave the past behind  the master mind of love
trying to enjoy  the moments i won't get again
after graduation when time goes past remember me for long
where do our highschool memories go
where do our highschool memories go
where do they go oh oh

Highschool Memories by Tory Lanez  

Highschool was great. Lots of fun and lots of friends.

I was a student of SMK Sultanah Hajjah Kalsom (SHAKS) which is located in Bandar Damansara Kuantan. It is a cluster school, about 20 minutes from my house and students supposedly live in hostel. I entered SHAKS on 2006 so yeah, after got 5A's for UPSR, Mama wanted me to enter a school that provides hostel facility eventhough I refused to. Cry me a river. So and so, I was an arabic class student - Al Farabi, stayed in Scarlet Dorm (room number four). The first sixth months I struggled a lot from homesick.  I was not used to iron my attires back then and the most horrible thing was I need to take turn for almost everything like to take bath in shower, to eat at Dewan Makan, to use washing machine and even to brush my teeth at the sink! Oh god. But well, those are the basic life of living in hostel right? You need to share because a cliche quote said sharing is caring and caring is loving :)

I have lots of good friend. Raihana, Maizatul Aimi, Lyiana Dee, Siti Nur Akmal are IIUM students. Nadzirah, Suhailah and Noraliff in UKM. Suria and Atiqah in UiTM while Solehah in UTM Skudai. Those overseas people, Shazmie in Yarmouk Jordan and Syafie in Japan if I am not mistaken. They were my classmates since Form One.

Raihana Rahim

Noraliff Zazliza

Syafiqah and Solehah

Ammar, Shazmie, Athirah, Fatin, Suhailah, Nadzirah, Syafiqah


1) Movie night during weekend in the school hall where we literally just need to pay fifty cent per person.

2) Going to the mall for outing, we changed our baju batik to comfortable casual attire anyway :p

ASAT 2007 - Sajak

Debat 2009

ASAT - Debat 2009

Pandu Puteri

I did debate for school, reciting poem too and a little bit of public speaking and obviously I was not active on the field/outdoor activities because of my petite and skinny figure. I was more comfortable on the stage, voice out my ideas well yeah I was a talkative person, I was and I am perhaps.

In debate team, I was the first speaker. Ainiza was the second while Suria was the third. Puan Zainurah was the one who trained us. Seriously, she's really scary but all of us do love her sincerely. After every winning, she'll treat us with yummy foods or gave some cute stuffs to appreciate our achievement in debate.

2008 - 3 Al Farabi

2009 - 4 Al Farabi

Pretty guys

Handsome girls

Classmates were really crazy, and clever, and sometimes too annoying haha. Aliff was the most charismatic one since he was the head boy cewahhh. Sometimes we tease him as an invisible man because he has a dark skin. I still remember, during our prep time on night, the whole block happened to black-out. Some of us shouted, "Aliff mana Aliff? Sudah lah, Aliff dah hilang". Haha. Aimi, Fatin, Suhailah, Syafiqah and Nadzirah were pretty popular because they were 'beauty with brain' type of people. No wonder they got alot of candies during dedication week,huh? :)

Akmal, Atiqah and Liyana were the most hardworking girls in the class since Form One, I swear. They also have good attitude. Muhaimin and Naqiuddin were the top students too but they always bullied others especially Suria. Suria was their favourite victim. Once they pasted a paper on the class' door written 'Suria Untuk Dijual' just because Suria got lesser marks than them. Every passerby just laughed and asked either they can buy Suria or not -.-

So many good times! I wish highschool would lasts forever but I know the future will be good too :)
bye bye byeee :')

A former highschool student,
Adawiyah Rosli :)

May 11, 2013

Elok-elok Berjalan, Hati :)

Semalam saya menonton Beautiful Creatures. Sedih k sedih T.T

Terjumpa satu entry dalam draft and it is the most cliche and corny entry I ever write. So bila nak scroll down entry ni, sediakan baldi untuk muntah if you do think my words are too cheesy. I was a person like this before, main bahasa bunga-bunga seperti bunga tahi ayam. Seriously. Shall we begin? Oh, and the subject doesn't exist in my life anymore, note that.

Penah dengar tak tentang tautan hati? Bila orang sana sakit,Allah akan gerakkan hati awak untuk turut sama rasa sakit dan bila orang sana sedih, Allah akan hadirkan juga perasaan sebak tu - saya tak tahu sama ada orang lain pernah rasa tapi saya pernah rasa macamana. Bila orang sana ada apa-apa masalah, hati saya tersentuh, it was like some kind of instinct. Kami terpisah antara negara. Saya tak fikirkan dia pun, saya buat kerja saya macam biasa tapi tiba-tiba saya akan rasa nak menangis. Saya tahu, perasaan sedih ni, sebak ni, sakit ni bukan dari diri saya. Saya taktahu nak terangkan macamana. Ini semua sebab sayang ke? Ya Allah, hati ni lagi-lagi laaa. Kenapa terasa orang kat sana ada masalah? Senget kan?

Perasaan ni sangat menyeksakan sebab saya takanak ambil tahu apa-apa pasal dia. Saya taknak tahu dia mati ke, hidup ke sebab saya tadek medium untuk menghubungi dia. Allah kan medium kita? Tapi, saya dah tadek hati, hehe. Saya pernah cakap kat Allah,

"Allah, Kau hilangkanlah tautan hati ini. Jangan biarkan hati aku ini tersentuh lagi pada keadaannya. Lenyapkanlah dia dari ingatanku. Susah sangat nak tahu perihal dia, maka hilangkanlah semuanya. Jangan biarkan hati ini terdetik untuk mengambil tahu perihal dia. Jangan biarkan hati ini resah bila tahu keadaan dia yang ada masalah. Jangan sentuhkan hatiku untuknya. Perasaan ini membuatkan aku menderita ya Allah... maafkan aku. Hilangkanlah perasaan ini supaya aku tak malu untuk menghadap-Mu."

Perasaan cinta tu, bukannya kita nak. Tak pernah minta tapi tetap datang - inilah fitrah. Saya ni bukan jenis mudah... hehe so kalau kena, akan sakit dan sakit. Dan akan larikan diri so jadi senget sebentar. Maka dari dulu, cakap kat hati, "Hati sayanggg, elok-elok berjalan, jangan sakit lagi dan jangan malukan lagi diri depan Allah" Mestilah malu, boleh pulak teringat kat dia, rindu kat dia. Eh, pada Allah ada perasaan yang sama tak? Rasa rindu dan cinta pada Allah tu melebihi rindu dan cinta kepada si dia tak? Sebenarnya cakap macamtu untuk kukuhkan hati dan juga niat. Dan, bila break up sesama manusia ni, menyakitkan dan kalau nak sembuh, it takes time. Boleh sembuh, Allah kan ada, luahlah semua :)

Saya pernah ditanya dan dijadikan tempat meluahkan perasaan oleh seorang sister yang saya kenal semasa sama-sama berMukhayyam Khariji dulu. Dia pernah cakap, dia akan tunggu lelaki yang dia suka tuu. Dia takut kalau dia kahwin, dia tak boleh nak cintakan lelaki lain macam di cintakan kekasihnya yang dulu. Allah, inilah bahayanya cinta. Letakkan cinta pada tempat yang betul. Kalau tak letakkan sesuatu pada tempat yang betul, itukan zalim namanya. Cinta... adakah cinta tu boleh dipupuk? Boleh disemai? Tak kenal maka tak cinta kan? Tak kenalAllah maka takkan cintakan Dia. Sama juga jika seseorang yang akan hadir dalam hidup kita nanti sebagai kekasih yang halal, cubalah mencintai dan tanyakan pada diri, "Cinta ini kerana nafsu atau kerana Allah?". Susahnya nak belajar mencintai seseorang, haha. Macam paksa diri untuk suka certain subjek yang susah tahap gaban, macam nak completekan game candy crush level 33, yang sangat amat terlalu susah. Anyway, belajar subjek ke, belajar untuk mencintai ke, untuk apa semua tu? Sebab hobi? Sebab suka? Eh taklah, sebab PERLU kerana Allah.

Satu lagi, dalam bersahabat, ramai lelaki yang mudah buat baik dengan perempuan. Ramai yang saya jumpa. Tapi adakah itu tanda mereka mencintai saya? Tidak anak-anak, tidak sama sekali. Semua itu adalah atas dasar persahabatan semata-mata. Ini pesanan ikhlas tanpa caj berbayar : jangan mudah rasa terharu untuk mencintai dan terus mendambakan seseorang yang so-called-special. Naturalkan hati. Kalau nak jugak lah terharu tu kan, alihkan rasa terharu itu kepada Allah, "Ya Allah, Kau Maha Penyayang kerana hadirkan aku sahabat-sahabat yang sangat baik hati dan sentiasa suka menolong. Terima kasih ya Allah, sayangilah mereka...". Ada seorang sahabat lelaki saya berikan saya MP3 - so what do you expect? Confirm sangat ramai cakap yang sahabat ni sukakan saya, cintakan saya yadda yadda yadda. Sesungguhnya tidak wahai rakyat jelata sekalian. Dia memang sangat baik dengan semua orang. Memang dia jenis baik macamtu, nak buat macamane lagi? Ottoke? Dan hati saya ni, tadeklah terharu sampai nak jatuh cinta. Cinta tu berputik bukan sebab material tapi hadir secara semulajadi. And because of that (dan oleh kerana itu) saya belikan dia sebuah buku tazkiyatun nafsu. Dia memang tak suruh bayar tapi, orang berbudi, kita pun kena berbudi. Lagipun, buku tu banyak mengajar hati saya so I wish he'll get something from that book too :)

Teringat saya kepada pengisian satu talk di IIUM Kuantan, ada seorang brother ni cakap, orang perempuan ni, kalau dia dah jatuh cinta, dia akan sayang sesayangnya. Dia akan setia. Kalau dia jatuh cinta pada seorang lelaki dan lelaki itu adalah cinta pertamanya, dia akan kenang lelaki tu sampai bila-bila, selamanya, forever and ever (here,saya bangkang yang berhormat. tak semua orang sama). Didatangkan kisah Asiah, semasa Asiah diseksa oleh Firaun, apa yang Asiah minta? Asiah minta pada Allah sebuah mahligai di syurga dan Asiah tak minta pun suami yang soleh temankan dia. Sebabnya, kata brother ni lah, sebabnya Firaun masih bertakhta di hati Asiah, wallahu'alam. Saya dalam dua, nak percaya ke tak tapi kenyataan ni sangat menghempuk saya laaa.

Okay entry macam dah panjang sangat.

p/s Sentiasalah cakap kat ibu mama umi emak, "doakan anakmu ini dapat suami yang soleh". Doa ibu sangat superb dan mujarab jiddan!^^

March 09, 2013

That Somebody


Because we all need somebody to talk to.
Somebody that will listen,
somebody that will understand.

"Tak contact dia dah?"
"Should I?"
"Sooner or later, tetap kena move on. It was just a chapter. I am in another chapter now, cumanya watak dia dah tak wujud. Mungkin jeda, mungkin jugak noktah. Aku tak tahu dan aku tak boleh cakap aku tahu. Kau pun tak tahu. Allah je yang tahu - the past, the present and the future"
"Kau boleh terima macam tu je?"
"Aku manusia. Bukan Tuhan yang boleh tentukan semua perkara. Aku bahagia dengan apa yang aku ada sekarang"


Because we all need somebody to talk to.
Somebody that will listen,
somebody that will understand. - He is Allah ^^

February 04, 2013

Of Dream And Love

Bismillah, with the name of Allah. Ar-rahman Ar-Rahim, the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

Let us ponder some quotes first :

"If you have dream; dream big, dream bigger, dream biggest. But be specified. Dream something you can achieved"


"Your biggest competition is your own view of the future"

Ekhem. These two quotes were shared by Miss Zakiah during TESLians gathering weeks ago in TELTRAC Hall. So now let us talk about dream versus perspective. Let us :)

As time passes by, my perspective change little by little. To be exact, I do learn a lot - to be so called human being. A good human being. A better human being than yesterday, yestermonth or yesteryear perhaps.

Here, in Institut Pendidikan Guru, I am joining the Debate Club. Yet, I always complain to quit on being a debater as I begin to dislike this debate thingy. Perhaps, I force myself to dislike it (?). Debate do give me pain in certain ways - A LOT. There is always a bad side of me suddenly appear when I argue with others. Surely, I don't think that I am a good debater. Erghh.

Aaand, gamelan. Yes, I play gamelan instruments ahaaa. Sarun to be exact. I am learning to play Bonang but hell yes, it is bloody difficult! My classmate, Shalihin played Bonang for the first time weeks ago and amazingly, he master the skill just like a piece of cake. Raihan and I have this kind of suspicious feeling towards Shalihin due to his amazing skill, haha. I asked Abang Arief to teach me how to play gendang and he said that he'll asked his friend to teach me,later. Abang Arief, I keep on your promise seriously. Khadijah is in process of learning to play Gambang.

Badan Dakwah, Moral dan Disiplin (BADAMD) - Atikah and I are under Lajnah Ekonomi : we have this cooking thingy, open the stall etc. Sometimes we were late for the meeting or attending the activities. Dear Farhana Azhari, I am sorry for all my wrong doing. My new resolution : be a punctual person. Aja aja fighting!

"Kita bukan bekerja untuk Allah pada waktu lapang tetapi kita melapangkan waktu bekerja untuk Allah" Farhana Azhari via text message.

Debate is like a drug - being an addiction of mine since a long time ago.
Gamelan is my staple diet, my stress reliever - I love this art the most.
BADAMD - via this organization, I learn how to work systematically, to give and take, to be responsible.

Allahu, of dream and love...

Not to forget, I have a secret on being a positive thinker person everyday. It is because of my surrounding - the people involve. In detail, the hyperactive happy go lucky cheerful and gila-gilaaa classmates are the positive charge.

le cekguuu

my roomate - the white scarf



Muzakkir & Raihan

These are the completeness. If one ain't exist, it is the nothingness.

Moray - the best student in Physical Education. Yes I admit you are the best Moray. Raihan and Patcey, the best combo of Ketua Unit and Penolong Ketua Unit hehee. Shalihin and Dayang who have never been fail to entertain us with their 'cousin relationship apa apa jaa lah'. Tan Hon Kian the all rounder man, has a chinese look, can speak Mandarin uuu Tan is great. You should consider the mix marriage, Tan, haha. Atikah, our Kak Long. Don't forget our salary Kak Long. Don't keep the kutipan cukai on yourself, hehs. Hana I love you saranghae. Cute Nana Yew is cute. Juju a.k.a Mimah a.k.a Siti Zhulaikha, I am sorry I can't be the shoulder as my shoulder is not that broad ngeee. Syahmi, do take a lot of notes' pictures as I am too lazy to jot down everything. Others, you are the best!

Guys,this is cliche but I do love all of you (treat me on my coming birthday haha)

Salam'alayk :)

January 17, 2013

My Shoes. Slippery Road.

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah.

I just finished my Learning Support class with Miss Amrien. It was an eye-opening session with her. She told us about her experience before becoming a lecturer. At first, she does not even think that she will involved in this teaching field. After SPM result, she got an offer to be a pharmacy student with a scholarship from JPA. At the same time, IPG also offer her to be a teacher trainee. She was interested to involve in so-you-called-pharmacy-field but her mother suggested her to go for IPG. And yes, she is our beloved lecturer now :)

Mine is almost the same. Mama and Abah asked me to attend IPG. Since I was a kid, I never thought that I will be a teacher. Not even once. During primary school, I want to be a journalist/novelist/writer. I adore A. Samad Said and Usman Awang the most. I participated in reciting poem, public speaking and writing essay. As Mama is a Bahasa Melayu teacher, I do think she influence me a lot. Besides, Abah always bring me to accompany him reciting poem around Kuantan area. Abah is really great in reciting poem. To be truth, Abah is a romantic man (I read Mama and Abah's love letters. Mama still save them. Ahem)

As I grew up, I changed my ambition - to be a lawyer. Being a secondary school student, I actively involved in Public Speaking and Debate. I switched from a Science student to an Art student during form five because I wanted to learn more about 'Kesusasteraan Melayu' and 'Pendidikan Seni Visual'. As my previous school, SHAKS does not have these art subject, I asked to move to other school near my house, SMK Bukit Rangin. Yes, my decision might be crazy but yaww I manage to get an excellent result, alhamdulillah :)

SHAKS Debate Team. Team mate,I miss us :)

After SPM, I joined usrah IKRAM with my friends. Via usrah, my perspective and the way I justify something changed a bit. Again, I changed my ambition - to be a TV broadcaster. I am fascinated with the concept of how mass media can persuade people - the way we think, the way we act and behave. If I was a TV broadcaster, I want to spread Islam through my job. I want others to realize how beautiful Islam is.

On May 2011, I got an offer from UiTM Shah Alam for Foundation in Law and Foundation in TESL from IPG. I confidently wanted to go to UiTM. Through Foundation in Law, I might get to pursue the next level of my study in MassCom. Days passed, Mama asked me to declined the offer from UiTM Shah Alam. I cried. I do cried. I don't want to go to IPG.

So and so, I am here, a teacher trainee of Teaching English as Second Language. My road is still slippery. For the time being, I enjoy my life as a teacher trainee because of Mama and Abah. Because of my adorable classmates and other students here. And above of all, because I believe that Allah's plan is the best.

إِنَّا كُلَّ شَيْءٍ خَلَقْنَاهُ بِقَدَرٍ
Indeed, all things We created with predestination.

Please don't judge me just because I am not willingly to involve in this teaching field at first, this is my shoes. You don't fit in it. But please support me, I need that the most, dear.

Dear classmates a.k.a Barneys,
I love all of you. I do. Let us create more great memories, lovelies :)

Sue Zhen, Claudi, Mary

Blue uuu


I love this.

Madam Linda Goodhew

By the way, we are welcoming our new fellow, Madam Linda Goodhew. Before, she was a fellow at Jogjakarta Indonesia, Singapore and Japan and interestingly she was a student of Oxford University :O

Congratulations to Siti Khadijah, one of my clssmates for being a part of Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar. May Allah bless you, Kak Jah. Not to forget, I am now involve in debate... again :)

Thank you for reading, salam'alayk ^^

January 05, 2013



Just a brief rant.

Far away from each other. Tapi saya tetap yakin dan percaya tentang 'itu' :)

"Ya Allah, pertemukanlah aku dengan seorang suami yang soleh. Yang aku redha terhadap agama, rupa paras, keturunan dan juga hartanya. Permudahkanlah urusanku dan murahkanlah rezekiku di dunia dan di akhirat"

Let us meet in Allah's path. Let us. Boleh kan? And let us put Allah above all. To meet you in Allah's path is the only thing I ask and let me run freely towards my dream.

Jatuh selalu
tapi saya bangun dan lari
lepas ni
saya nak lari
tapi lebih laju
dari sebelum ni.

Allah, I told You my pain, my sadness and my worries. Yet You replaced them with smiles, with flowers. Ya Allah, ease everything. I believe that Your plan is the best for me. Saranghae-yo Allah :)