January 17, 2013

My Shoes. Slippery Road.

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah.

I just finished my Learning Support class with Miss Amrien. It was an eye-opening session with her. She told us about her experience before becoming a lecturer. At first, she does not even think that she will involved in this teaching field. After SPM result, she got an offer to be a pharmacy student with a scholarship from JPA. At the same time, IPG also offer her to be a teacher trainee. She was interested to involve in so-you-called-pharmacy-field but her mother suggested her to go for IPG. And yes, she is our beloved lecturer now :)

Mine is almost the same. Mama and Abah asked me to attend IPG. Since I was a kid, I never thought that I will be a teacher. Not even once. During primary school, I want to be a journalist/novelist/writer. I adore A. Samad Said and Usman Awang the most. I participated in reciting poem, public speaking and writing essay. As Mama is a Bahasa Melayu teacher, I do think she influence me a lot. Besides, Abah always bring me to accompany him reciting poem around Kuantan area. Abah is really great in reciting poem. To be truth, Abah is a romantic man (I read Mama and Abah's love letters. Mama still save them. Ahem)

As I grew up, I changed my ambition - to be a lawyer. Being a secondary school student, I actively involved in Public Speaking and Debate. I switched from a Science student to an Art student during form five because I wanted to learn more about 'Kesusasteraan Melayu' and 'Pendidikan Seni Visual'. As my previous school, SHAKS does not have these art subject, I asked to move to other school near my house, SMK Bukit Rangin. Yes, my decision might be crazy but yaww I manage to get an excellent result, alhamdulillah :)

SHAKS Debate Team. Team mate,I miss us :)

After SPM, I joined usrah IKRAM with my friends. Via usrah, my perspective and the way I justify something changed a bit. Again, I changed my ambition - to be a TV broadcaster. I am fascinated with the concept of how mass media can persuade people - the way we think, the way we act and behave. If I was a TV broadcaster, I want to spread Islam through my job. I want others to realize how beautiful Islam is.

On May 2011, I got an offer from UiTM Shah Alam for Foundation in Law and Foundation in TESL from IPG. I confidently wanted to go to UiTM. Through Foundation in Law, I might get to pursue the next level of my study in MassCom. Days passed, Mama asked me to declined the offer from UiTM Shah Alam. I cried. I do cried. I don't want to go to IPG.

So and so, I am here, a teacher trainee of Teaching English as Second Language. My road is still slippery. For the time being, I enjoy my life as a teacher trainee because of Mama and Abah. Because of my adorable classmates and other students here. And above of all, because I believe that Allah's plan is the best.

إِنَّا كُلَّ شَيْءٍ خَلَقْنَاهُ بِقَدَرٍ
Indeed, all things We created with predestination.

Please don't judge me just because I am not willingly to involve in this teaching field at first, this is my shoes. You don't fit in it. But please support me, I need that the most, dear.

Dear classmates a.k.a Barneys,
I love all of you. I do. Let us create more great memories, lovelies :)

Sue Zhen, Claudi, Mary

Blue uuu


I love this.

Madam Linda Goodhew

By the way, we are welcoming our new fellow, Madam Linda Goodhew. Before, she was a fellow at Jogjakarta Indonesia, Singapore and Japan and interestingly she was a student of Oxford University :O

Congratulations to Siti Khadijah, one of my clssmates for being a part of Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar. May Allah bless you, Kak Jah. Not to forget, I am now involve in debate... again :)

Thank you for reading, salam'alayk ^^

January 05, 2013



Just a brief rant.

Far away from each other. Tapi saya tetap yakin dan percaya tentang 'itu' :)

"Ya Allah, pertemukanlah aku dengan seorang suami yang soleh. Yang aku redha terhadap agama, rupa paras, keturunan dan juga hartanya. Permudahkanlah urusanku dan murahkanlah rezekiku di dunia dan di akhirat"

Let us meet in Allah's path. Let us. Boleh kan? And let us put Allah above all. To meet you in Allah's path is the only thing I ask and let me run freely towards my dream.

Jatuh selalu
tapi saya bangun dan lari
lepas ni
saya nak lari
tapi lebih laju
dari sebelum ni.

Allah, I told You my pain, my sadness and my worries. Yet You replaced them with smiles, with flowers. Ya Allah, ease everything. I believe that Your plan is the best for me. Saranghae-yo Allah :)