The Fault in My Stars

March 10, 2014
8.30 am

"I fell in love the way you fall asleep, slowly and then all at once"

- The Fault in Our Stars, John Green.

Love is about accepting one's characteristics/interests, not about bearing it because for me, 'accept' is more close to your heart and you'll try to love it too, you'll try to be a part of it. 'Bear' is something you try to ignore, you try to not hate it and at the same time, you will not like it either, as if it is actually invisible.

And that is the point. When you love someone, you should accept him/her unconditionally. You'll try to love what he/she loves. You'll try without any force.

He loves Daughtry. Oh well, I'm not really a die hard fan of Daughtry and their songs are not in my favourite playlist. But I have time to listen to Daughtry's nowadays, even my mornings' ear candies are Daughtry's like seriously.

I love that we can be weird together. Even I don't mind he said 'tahik awak' when I say some nonsense thing. Even he doesn't mind I always'hek eleh' him.

I should ask Mama Abah to let us marry ASAP. Three years is too long. Jk :)

"That's the thing about pain. It demands to be felt"

-The Fault in Our Stars, John Green.

I'm torn nowadays, trying to stitch myself back. I love my classmates, I even love my JPP family but that's the problem, when you love them, actually you never ever have the permission to hurt them, even curse them silently.

I'm torn, really. I want to love them endlessly. I don't want to get angry with them. I don't want to lose them either.

I should fix me. Stitch everything back.

xo