I've Been in a Phase...

Assalamu'alaikum and hi, everyone :)

Everyone has their own past, the chapter that they don't read out aloud. The past has no power over the present moment, but somehow it makes us who the person we are today.

I've been in a phase where I need to tell my parents that not all of their decisions are the best for me. I've been forced to take science stream for my SPM study. I've told them; my parents and my teachers for so many times that I don't have even a tiny bit of interest to learn about any root of sciences -- biology, chemistry, physics. My parents ended up met the school counselor, discussing about me, my future and whatsoever~ Worsen the situation, the counselor said to my parents that the future study for science stream students are greater than the art stream students. Taking art stream bring you to nowhere. To add, she even 'advised' me to study hard and "kalau orang lain boleh buat, awak pun boleh buat (belajar sains)". Yeah okay, well, I'm not orang lain. I am myself. For a year in science stream, I performed really bad. I kept getting D, E and G for all of the sciences subject plus add math. Truth is, I'm not interested and the teachers know. I cannot transfer school because my parents were under my counselor's 'possession'. At the end of the year, I said to my parents, that I want to transfer school. I can't take it anymore. I'm ready to face all of the consequences cuz of my late transfer to art stream. Mama get mad at me, so I cried, of course. But yeah, that's just for a day. I ended up registering as an art stream student at my new school when I was in form five. Not getting all A's but yeah, I'm among the top students. I'm proud hahaha. Well, after that phase, my parents let me choose what I want and I can talk freely about my plan to them.


I've been in a phase where I've been dumped by a good looking man. He was my primary school's friend and I need to admit that he's a good looking one. We started dating when I was in form four, 2009. I'm so proud because he's a very good looking one and he has lots of fan girls at his school (we're in different highschools, he's a SBP student). During that time dah ada selfie but you can just take a selfie guna kamera belakang so I keep getting his selfies because we're in a long distance relationship. I was showing off to my friends about how good looking my boyfriend is. We keep texting each other for three months until this 2009 raya, he text me that he wanted to end our relationship. The reasons that he gave me was"couple itu haram", sharing an article about couple haram to me and he didn't want to stay in this relationship anymore. I CRIEDDD of course. It was an achievement kottt to date a good looking guy who studies in SBP!!! But then, I keep my dignity. I just said, if it is meant to be, it will be. If that's what you want, I'll go with it -- cuz I don't want to look so pathetic and I want the fact that I've been dumped is not obvious. Lagipun he's the president of BADAR (Badan Dakwah Rohani) in his school, so I accepted his reasons. Months after that, some of my friends who went to the same school with him said to me that he actually having some sort of crush with his junior. So, okay, actually I got dumped because of a girl, like seriously. This phase taught me to not believe good looking guys, just kidding. It taught me to love someone who loves you to no end, who loves you back and who loves you more. A real man gives up all the women in this world that want him, for the one woman that is his world that he wants.

That's all from me, keep reading my friends' phases below, and, what phase you've been going through?

xo

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"I've been in a phase where I question if I am worthy of all the compliments I've been getting ever since I aced my exams when I was in primary school" -Syafiq Haiqal

"I've been in a phase where I am very confused and depressed. I didn't know who/what I wanted to be. It was when I wanted to fill in the UPU form. Do I want to be a doctor, or a lawyer, or an engineer? I don't know. I got depressed for almost a week. I was so worried about what's going to happen to me in the future. But I learnt that you don't have to have any affirmation/confirmation about your future. No one is certain about theirs. Having goals and plans are great, but forcing them to happen, is not" -Syamil Hanafi

"Back then during my foundation years, I was an introvert and seniors would label me as 'snobbish, stuck-up junior who doesn't say 'hi' to seniors' type of junior. I ignored them. At least until they graduated. Then I realized, 'I am better than what they say. I can do more. I can be someone. I can change. I am me. So I did. I don't know but I've become more extroverted and mingle with other people, especially the lecturers and staff members. I befriend with juniors and seniors. I might not be as strong, nice, cheerful as I am now. I am thankful for my old self and also the people around me" -Abang Muhammad Syahmi

"I've been a phase that I hate myself. I hated of being sick. I hated being obese (due to my pills) .I hated being incapable ; joining cross country, running around. I was helpless. Consuming a lot of pills daily is not easy. I lost a lot of hair, I get tired easily and I tend to feel hunger every 1 hour (approx) . I once thought, what if I stopped taking my meds ? Curiosity kills the cat, I did stop my pills (w/o doctor's supervision). I was hospitalized for 2 weeks +-. Collapsed at school, intubated in the ambulance. I learned that happiness is a choice, not coincidence. I decided to stick with my medication . Eventually, i get better (period of 2 years after the incident). I am happy with my current self. I dont need to be skinny as supermodels do . "Just be yourself", one said . And now, what makes me "proud" of making that stupid decision is ; I believe in myself. I did hate P.E bcs i did not believe that I can do as everyone does. Ironically, i even conducted aerobic during Hari Sukan Negara . *Be*lieve in *you*rself. *Be you* " -Athirah

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7 Types of Students Before Entering the Examination Hall

Hai everyone.

I just finished my first paper this morning. Two more two go. My last paper will be on 24th of November. For four years in college, I identified a few types of students before entering the examination hall. Please be noted that, yasss I always use bahasa rojak so please don't mind me. So, happy reading!

1. The Nujum Pak Belalang - this type of students will always have the stock of ramalan soalan from other institutions. They are the ones with wider connection of friends. Once they get the ramalan soalan, they will spread it in class whatsapp group, batch whatsapp group, college whatsapp group, menteri kabinet whatsapp group dan tidak ketinggalan family whatsapp group. It is good if you have ramalan soalan, but it is better to read and focus everything. Better safe than sorry, aite? ;)

2. The A Day Before Exam - this type of students need a professional skill in doing last minute works. They will finish the modul in one go a day before the examination day. They are undeniably the type who don't get nervous to face the examination. Besides, they are such positive people, doesn't get sway by examination. I think it is okay to be this type of students, as long as you focus in classes along the semester. And if you are a genius, why not?

3. The Mind Map Masta - the mind map masta is the one who revise by using mind map. This take a lot of effort, and time, and colourful pens' ink. One good thing about the mind map masta is, they can study smartly where they can bring the mind map everywhere, for revising purpose. They as well are in high risk of being the victims for their last minute study friends, as their mind map stand a high chance to be borrowed.

4. The Q&A Host - before entering the examination hall, there will be at least one student who will wandering around and asking their friends about such topic. They even ask their friends to recap the topic for them. "Eh topic 3 ni apa?" "Apa lagi contoh materials? Textbook, language games, lagi apa?". For this person, please get a life. Everyone else need a time to cover on the topic that they think they are still lacking.

5. The Study Group - in any corners, you will see some students sit together, silently, and revise the notes, or modules. They won't give any response of their surroundings. They give other the impression of model students who values knowledge and view examination as a matter of life of death.

6. The Cool-o-Ice - they just bring themselves to the examination hall, and pencil case. No notes, no modules, no mind maps. They are the cool kidz who prepare themselves well for the examination day. Of course everyone are nervous about examination, but, come on, 15 minutes before examination starts, I think it is better to relax and calm your mind. And brace the questions!

7. The Latecomer - they actually do not know that they will be having an examination until their friends call. They also can be the ones who lost the track of time, or waking up late.

Phew. I end the list now.
Which one are you?

You Got Hijab?

" Habibati, are you an angel? Because I see the tag on your hijab says 'Made in Jannah'"
Ehem, pardon me for my lame pick up line.

Looking back of my past years as a muslim, I started wearing hijab fully when I was in Form 5. I started with tudung bawal, tudung indon/tudung sauk and shawl. During my days, the only choice of hijab patterns I ever had was the plain ones.

Some of us even limit their hijab types to one style only-- pergi kuliah pakai tudung bawal hitam, pergi pasar malam pakai tudung bawal hitam, graduation night pakai tudung bawal hitam, hari raya pun pakai tudung bawal hitam. Why you like this, meh? Shoulda tell ya, why not trying out some of these style, after all, you only live once ;)

• tudung awning - with a popular name tudung indon/tudung sauk. I've tried this out, wearing a black one and I never want to wear this type of hijab to class anymore cuz my classmates said 'tudung orang malas'.
• selendang/shawl - my all time preference. no worries if you don't know how to be stylish with your shawl, you can just buy the instant ones
• tudung bawal - got bawal crepe, cotton etc.
• tudung Syria - I think this one is better than tudung awning



Ain't these pretty?

Living in the year of 2016, the latest hijab fashion offers you a multiple choice of breathtakingly beautiful patterns of hijab from well-known designers such as Hatta Dolmat, Jovian Mandagie and Rizman Ruzaini. Some even going crazy for Naelofar-- as we can't deny the fact that Warda's hijab style from Suri Hati Mr. Pilot is now a trend.

For college students, we tend to simply wear jubah and match them with shawl. That's the simplest attire when we are so lazy or have limited time to prepare ourselves to class. By wearing pretty shawl, nampaklah kan effort nak bergaya ;) It's a mix and match game, anyway.

Thanks to the internet, we are now can just easily buy our hijabs through any website. Aidijuma, Bella Ammara, Benang Hijau -- just name it! Choose your online shop well and choose your hijab well, it is your crown.

xo



Miss Me?

Hello, I am back in writing blog for good.

Life in IPG is great, so far, minus the hostel problems, kena pindah biliklah, kena stay satu aras dengan classmates lah, kena satu bilik dengan classmate lah yadda yadda. Do I need to love my classmates like, too much? I am not hating them, please, but it is too much lah. Why not in the future pun posting satu sekolah dengan classmates and live in the same taman perumahan with them? I am now in my third year degree of  TESL. As always, not interested much in courses, but I need to study as smart and as hard as I can, to get the scroll for my parents. We're not living just for ourselves, aite? Basically, I am not busy with my studies, instead, I let myself getting busy with my writings and JPP duty.

Recently, I received an offer from Wan Ahmad Ismail to write a few poems in Malay to be  published. I am now waiting which poems will be selected for publishing. All thanks to Puan Fathiah for the offer. For JPP, biasalah, sibuk dengan politik IPG jewww hahaha. Practicum phase two at SK Tengku Bariah was great minus my emotion. Benda yang lepas jangan dikenang. I'll be doing my practicum phase three at SK Tok Jiring, January 2017 with the most handsome men of my batch-- Abang Muhammad Syahmi and Ahmad Aizat Hasnullah.


And, about home, takde adik baru. Due to the rejection of wanting my mom to give us new family members in human form, we added the new ones in catz form. Crazily, we are now having six cats in our house-- Hitam, Junior, Charm, Diego, Tiego and Trivago. I'll make a post about them later. Everyone in family is now officially cat people.

That's all for now. I'll update more stories later.

xo